So I’ve been telling people that I took a creative “gap year” this year. Sophie wrote an amazing article about taking a gap year in the magazine, but I didn’t know how talk about it at the beginning of the year, after finishing up my contract mid-January. If anyone asked me about it, I felt this wave of negative emotion washing over me. I put up a cheerful front, making it sound like it was deliberate decision to pursue other interests. Most days, that’s what I told myself what I was doing. I had grand plans to build online courses to teach people things and build my photography business – I had the craziest mind map drawn out with all my ideas. The truth is, I was totally burned out. I needed a break from working in a challenging field where we are expected to know all the answers. Sometimes the pressure I put on myself was greater than that of others.
So, by choice, I was without work because I knew I needed to recharge. It wasn’t exactly the refreshing break I’d imagined to start with. I would lie on the couch with my cats, fall asleep watching trashy shows like Judge Judy, and put any plans off for the ever-present “tomorrow”. It wasn’t helping me get out of my funk. I needed to get a job. Funnily enough, the very thing I was avoiding for that first two months was work and when I started to work again, that is when I really started to get back to my normal self. I found something great which was a little lower pressure, casual and much shorter hours. Now, after six months of part-time work, a three week holiday to Japan(I still need to blog about this!), a truly inspiring photography workshop, lots of mindfulness, and starting on fraction of the creative projects I had been imagining: it has all come together and I am finally now feeling a renewed sense of wellness and hope.
This photo set that I’ve created with Skye sums up the journey I’ve had this year; I’ve explored new ways of living, had moments of self-doubt and disappointment as well as moments of joy, happiness and pure contentment. I’m slowly figuring out how to balance work, life and everything else. Skye suggested I call this photoset “Miranda”, after the character in Shakespeare’s The Tempest, which is also fitting, given that one of the characters conjures up a storm.
Model & Clothing: Skye
Photography: Sabrina Wong
Gear: Lensbaby Composer Pro + Edge 80
Location: Cottesloe Beach, Perth WA
I hope you enjoyed these photos as much as we enjoyed making them!