I don’t know if anyone follows the blog so intently as to notice my comparative absence, especially as I do not post very often, but it has come to a time where I have to cut photography out of my life (temporarily). I have dragged my heels as long as possible on making this decision, but I am feeling increasingly run down and will not make it through the next couple of months without a change. My exams are in late November; the most important of my degree, even though I am only in my penultimate year.
I’m not sure if I’ve said this explicitly anywhere but I am a medical student. Unfortunately, the intensity of our degree does not allow us to be anything other than a medical student first and whatever-other-sense-of-identity-we-have second. There is an expectation of large knowledge base, and we are expected to constantly self-study to the point where cramming for an end-of-year exam is just not possible due to the sheer volume of material covered over the space of a year. This is certainly not a complaint, it is just a statement of fact. It is one of the many reasons I chose to do medicine - I love to be constantly learning.
I also love learning constantly about photography and coupled with physically being at shoots and time spent in photoshop, it is the largest consumer of my time (outside of medicine). Time that I would like to redirect instead into looking after myself; healthy food preparation, exercise and sleep. As long as I am shooting portraits, food or cosplay photography, I will feel a compulsion to be researching the best techniques and looking for inspiration – these days, I do not like to shoot without a critical eye and to research on how I can improve my craft. I am a bit of a perfectionist, which is both a blessing and a curse at times :)
I will continue on with my “10 on 10s” though, as it helps me recognise the beauty in the things I see around me and does not add much time to my schedule. I’ll definitely be back in December, sooner if I feel like exam preparation is going extremely well. Until then I’m going to try to damp down the passion I have for my favourite hobby!
I’ll still be around a little on my facebook page so add me there if you like :)